Me vs. Me

What is that?

What?

What's that on the ground? Is that what I think it is?

No. Don't. Don't mess with it, don't pick it u--

It is what I think it is!

Okay, fine. Now put it down.

It looks good, too. It's all fat & squishy.

No! You can't. You are insane to even be thinking about it, you know you can't do that.

Where can I put it? Not in the pockets, too easily found...besides it could start coming apart all in my pocket. But there's nowhere else... The inside pocket? - okay, that'll do. Till I get it home.

What are you doing??? What if somebody saw you pick that up? What if there are cops around? Just having that could get you in trouble!

Nobody saw me.

I cannot believe you're gonna take that to the house. What are you going to do with it?

Hide it. Put it in a ziplock bag, a little one if I can find one.

And then what? You're never gonna be able to use it.

I could, at the end of the week, then there wouldn't be any...oh, no wait. By then he'll be here, and he won't... Well, I'll just save it.

You're insane!

No, I'll just hold on to it, there's bound to be a time when no one will be around.

While you're here? Do you have any idea what will happen if you get caught??? Is it worth that?

Yeah, I better not. But after... all I need is a few hours. No one will ever know.

What if he finds out? You know what he said, do you want to take the chance that he'll go easy on you? Can you keep a secret like that from him? Forever?

I could tell him, ask him if he'd let me do it. It would only be just this once, after all...

Listen to yourself!!! Just this once? Do you really think you can do it just once, and never again? Because you know it's gonna be good - even if it's lousy, it'll be good. You have to throw it away.

But I want it!

No. It's not worth it. Look how stressed out you are, just from having it in your pocket. Throw it away, and all the scenarios go away.

I can't...I want it.  I'll save it - I'll hide it... I WANT IT!!!

No! Throw it away. Just drop it on the ground and keep walking, and it'll be over. Don't think about it. You know you're gonna have to do it. Reach into the pocket, find it...now crumple it up and drop it on the ground. Now walk awa--

That's okay, it's still in big chunks, I can come back later and still find it.

NO! Go back, step on it, and make sure it's all the way gone. DO IT! Now shuffle your foot across it, kick it over that way, and the rest of it over there. Okay, now it's gone. Now walk away.

I hate you.