Awake

It's somewhere around 5am, and I've been awake for two and a half hours. Don't know why.

I went downstairs and got a glass of milk, and came back up to play on the computer, in hopes of lulling myself back to sleep, rather than staying in bed, tossing & turning, and ruining my husband's night's rest.

Now the milk is gone and I have a sour taste in my mouth. I can't go brush my teeth because the noise would wake someone up. I'm playing Mah-Jong and doing pretty well at it - I've already beat my own best speed (twice) - and I'm starting to get shaky, but I'm not falling asleep.

I have Green Day stuck in my head (not a bad thing) and my mind is still spinning around the recent discovery that a friend of my husband's has been cheating on her husband - who is fighting in Iraq - with just about everybody in the small town where she lives. I never liked that girl much to begin with...

The alarm will go off in another hour and fifteen minutes; I don't have to work today - just some laundry and dishes to catch up with. Between doing that I can sleep.

It's nights like this, when I wake up with my thoughts racing, that I miss my days of chemical dependency. At least then I had a way to turn everything off and get back to sleep.

Eight more puzzles and I'll get a new rank. This Mah-Jong game is animated; when you match the season tiles for Winter, it snows - and it always makes my feet cold.